A friend asked me about this blog recently.
“So what exactly are you trying to do with that? Do you want to be Tony Robbins or somethin’?”
While I’d love to be Tony Robbins, or at least have his influence, wisdom and wealth, that’s probably not me.
I really want to just put something useful out there, but there’s a bit more to it than that.
I’m trying to be more open. That’s the whole point of blogging, right? Putting yourself out there a bit, sharing something personal.
So I figure I should share some of my goals with y’all.
Goal #1: Write a novel
Writers write. While I write a lot for Access and Access Perks, and a couple other sites for my career, I have to expand my voice a bit.
I’m very fortunate to work for a company that allows me to use a unique tone when I write. It’s been very good for me to learn how to find unique perspective within the confines of a brand.
This blog gives me the chance to change things up a bit, to be Jekyll and Hyde if I want. Not in the sense of good and evil, but I can stretch my tone, my pacing, my verbiage here. One night I can post about meditation, then a post about turning socks inside out the next.
Then there’s the discipline of publishing six days a week. I don’t know how long I’ll keep it up, but it’s a tough exercise and requires discipline I haven’t really had before.
These are the types of skills I need to put together a novel: comfort within given confines, unique voice, and discipline.
I hope to have something published within two years. I have no idea what it’ll be about, but I do have a file of 30 or 40 half-baked ideas.
Goal #2: Shore up some weaknesses
One thing that has pushed me to improve my general temperament in life has been an honest reckoning of my weaknesses.
For example, I thought I could get away with eating huge portions of food because I worked out so often. I didn’t understand why my weight didn’t drop.
Once I was honest with myself, made the hard decision to eat less, the weight came off. And it wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be.
I just had to single it out and work to change it. Once you break a big goal down to a granular level, anything is doable.
With that in mind, here are a handful of other weaknesses I’ve identified that I’m working on right now:
- Talking to strangers/being in crowds
- Staying emotionally in tune with my wife, kids, family and friend
- Distraction, especially when in conversation
- Getting enough sleep
- Writing intimidation (you go and read The Road and ask yourself if you can write that)
- Public scrutiny (I hate the idea that someone is going to read my words and loathe them, or disagree with them. It’s been happening for years, but I’ve never gotten comfortable with it – and it’s kept me from saying the things I most need to say.)
That’s just a sampling of what I need to work on. There’s more, but I feel better for putting these out there.
For the few of you who read me regularly, you can hold me accountable for these things, if you like.
For the general public and passersby, I plan to document how I improve in these areas. Hopefully someone connects with it.
There, you know where I’m going, and what I think the obstacles to getting there are. I haven’t always been upfront about what I’m thinking, or my plans.
That era is over. Let’s see what we can do.